I'm awake

I get these phone calls and my whole world is shaken up.

Although I no longer claim his love and so much time passes between each time we talk, a piece of that man will always live within me and I will always cherish it. So, when I hear him breaking down i feel my heart drop as well although there is nothing I can do to help. I just can't go there.

Despite the turmoil, despite the pain, love just doesn't ever leave completely, as far as I'm concerned. And that troubles me because what am I supposed to do until I find that one that stays solid forever? I don't want to hold onto pieces of many different relationships but at the same time I must explore and I do enjoy becoming close to different men. Ahhhh, Love leaves me so confused!!

After all, Love is a beautiful thing. But it's always a multi-tasking idea that can bring joy, pain, ache and organisms all at once. And I feel so sensitive to all  that and it scares me.
Maybe I'll finish this later. For now I'm out! PEACE